Okay, so today was one of those days. It was hard being a nice mommy (and I wasn't at times), my kids were driving me crazy. I wasn't in a very good mood when Bart came home either. Maybe it's the weather. This rainy/cooler weather is really reminding me of winter and I don't like it. I don't like being stuck inside the house all day every day. Maybe it's my lack of a good nights rest. I've been staying up too late, and Cole gets up too early. Maybe it's the stress of getting everything done. I have said before that I do like the school schedule but with it comes more responsibility and more things to "do". Maybe it's this waiting game with the adoption. Life was so "exciting" for a while with lots to do. Weekly/monthly I could check things off my to do list and feel like I was really accomplishing sutff. Now, we're just waiting.
A friend gave me a book called The Practice of the Presence of God. A quote that speaks to me tonight: "A means for attaining the presence of God is a great faithfulness in the practice of His presence, and in keeping the soul's gaze fixed on God in faith, calmly, humbly, lovingly, without allowing an entrance to anxious cares and disquietude."
Maybe this is it...I forget that in the midst of mothering and just living this life He gave me, to stay in His presence. Then nothing seems "right". I need to practice being in His presence all day, keeping my gaze on Him while carrying out the daily tasks set before me...calmly and lovingly. Another quote that sounds kinda funny but so relates to me at home "Lord of all pots and pans and things...make me a saint by getting meals and washing up the plates!" :) When I stay in God's presence I experience true joy and fulfillment...even when I have kids crying, fighting, and spilling noodles all over my just scrubbed floor!
On the adoption front, I did get to "mark something off my checklist" today. We finally got DCFS approval for our homestudy. Now it is being sent to USCIS. After they approve it, we get our 171 which is an important paper we need to travel. This probably doesn't mean much to a lot of you, but it's one of last things needed to finish up our initial paperwork that we started in back in April.
6 comments:
Yeah for the approval!!! I can't belive how long that took. Good thing you didn't have to have it for the dossier.
And great post. It's so true for all of us. We all have days like that for sure...and it's not easy. Love the quotes though, great encouragement.
Amen! Can't wait for coffee!
oh Janell, wish I would've known when you stopped by. Those days seem be more abundant now that there are 4 kiddos around. Great perspective.
That is SO how I am feeling today. It hasn't been a good day and not for any reason in particular. Such a great reminder to ALWAYS be in God's presence, thanks for that. If you ever want to get together, I would love to.
Congrats on the 171 approval! One less thing to worry about.
Thanks for the encouragment! I know what you mean about those days, and the rain doesnt help either! Congrads on the approval, I really dont know much about the 171, however after reading a couple of yours and others blogs I do know that it is important.
Thanks Nell! I am still learning from you! You are the best! God bless you for sharing your heart and reminding me to always be in God's presence! When our new little sweetie arrives you will look back and wonder where all the time went! :) God is good all the time! Hugs to all! :)
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