This is the day that the Lord has made

For this child I prayed and the Lord has given me my petition which I asked of Him. I Samuel 1:27

Yes, today was referral day!!!!! February 10, 2009. I'll never forget it. I received a call around noon from my social worker from CWA. My heart started beating fast and I was shaking. I was trying to take notes on what she said and write down all the details but I was having a hard time focusing. I kept thinking of running to the computer and getting the email. Let me see her! So, after about 5 minutes on the phone, she said she'd email me the details and some pictures.

We have a beautiful 3 month old little girl!!! Really. She is just a little doll. Everything a little girl should be. In her pics she has a diaper on and nothing else. I can't wait to get her in some pink! :) We are beyond thankful.

When we started this adoption journey, it was all so foreign to me. Could I love another child? What will she look like? What's her personality going to be? Let me tell you, when I opened the email and saw her picture for the first time, I wept. I cried because she was so beautiful and perfect, because I had just told my sw a month ago that in my little utopia I'd want a 3 mo. old little girl, because God who started us on this journey had just brought us to the first stop along the way, and because I loved her already. God is so good. This is all His doing. It was never the desire of my heart to adopt. It was the desire of my heart to have a biological daughter in my child bearing days. God never allowed it. I didn't understand. But, now I see that this is His way of bringing Him glory. When God is talking to Moses about leading the Israelites out of Egypt he continually says so that Egypt will know that I am God. I believe our adoption journey has been so that we and others will know that God is God. He's in control.

This is the Lord's doing, it is marvellous in our eyes! (Psalm 118:23)